Shaken Out of Love

Confusion clouds over my mind
There’s something I want, but cannot find,
What is wrong, what is right?
I’m choking on love; I can feel its might.

I’m being shaken from my lovely dream,
I feel so mad, I want to scream!
Agitation makes my blood boil,
The pain I feel, is my heart in turmoil.

I loved so much, why the hate,
I cannot make the pain abate.
I fail to see what wrong I made,
My life isn't mine anymore, I can see it fade.

Waiting to Exhale...

WAITING TO EXHALE 

The sound of silence ringing in my ears,
My lips taste the saltiness of my tears,
I’m alone ,empty and I’m weeping,
I’m alive enough but barely breathing.

I need a touch , I need a smile
I need to know if u’ll stay awhile
The walls of darkness crush my hollow soul,
I need to breathe , I’m falling into a black hole,

I struggle to see, the light of the day
I can only see a dark sun, as I drift away,
I slip into nothingness I’m waiting to exhale......
help me , I want to live ,smile and breathe again.....

I saw her…..

                                                   

The water softly lapping against the rocks,

A beautiful warm sunny day for a walk.

Something shone in the suns glare,

It was a girl with long golden hair.

Something was different about this one

Never seen golden hair so radiantly spun,

The comb she held was studded with jewels,

The more she combed the more it glimmered with the colors of the sun.

She sang a beautiful tune which instantly made my heart dance,

I was filled with happiness and awe in a wondrous trance.

My joy suddenly turned to horror when she lunged forward and jumped into the sea,

Before I could scream out I saw a gleam,

It was a fish’s tail, the color of the brightest aquamarine,

I looked on in amazement, I could hardly breathe,

For a moment I thought our eyes met,

She flashed a pearly smile and dived in.

My heart raced and my head whirled,

When at last I caught my breath

I couldn’t believe what I just saw,

I had seen her……. I saw a Mermaid!

This is not me!

I am but a soul trapped in the wrong body, 

I'm  but a body trapped in the wrong role, 

I'm in a place trapped around the wrong people, 

I’m anybody you want me to be,  but I'm  just not me!

Why did I live someone else’s life? 

Why did I have to pretend? 

Why did I keep quiet and gulp down

My difference of opinion?

I'm not me, 

As you know me to be. 

I’m not me, 

As you want me to be. 

I'm not me.. 

This is not me. 

I am a curve, you are a line, 

I’ve tried to straighten as you have liked, 

I’ve killed my passions, forgone my desires, 

Patiently accepted your way of life….. The good life.. 

Then why do I feel empty? 

why do I feel unsure? 

My self esteem has no reason to look up

why can’t I live this life anymore.. 

I'm not me, 

As you know me to be, 

I’m not me, 

As you want me to be

I'm  not me.. 

This is not me!