Recharged with Nature

 

 The serenity of blue and gray reflections soothes my eyes. I inhale the crisp mountain air and it fills me with vigor, as I  exhale my insecurities gently away.

 I stare at the glassy facade, I feel it staring back at me piercing through my pretentious armor, seeing right through me as it reads my mind, it understands and declutters it at the same time.

  The daily clamor of do’s and don’ts slowly fades away from my mind as I close my eyes to inscribe this moment in my mind for later.

 When I open them, I see soft ripples flowing gently away from me through the obstacles where nothing can stop them. 

They flow because they want to, making peace with every rock and hurdle in its way saying, “It's okay, just let me be". 

 I keep a fallen leaf on the surface and it obediently takes it away, it's made its course and it knows where to go. 

It talks to me, It gives me confidence. I gather all the energy it is emitting and it fills the emptiness which grows inside my heart. 

I feel confident, to go where life takes me, I just have to meet every hurdle and get past it peacefully and not let it pollute my mind and body. 

I feel rejuvenated, I'm going to be okay.      

  Every time I come here something speaks to me, 
sometimes it’s the water body, so gentle and free, 
sometimes it’s the mountains, so strong but humble, 
sometimes it’s the breeze, so sure and firm,

They're always there, my faithful friends. 
They tell me exactly what I need to know at that time,
 fill me with assurance and renewed hope.

 I've had my fill, I am at peace, 
I'm recharged .... Until next time!

A Lake to Remember

I came upon a pondered lake,

It took my breath away, 

I’m not a nature poet as such, 

But this one had me sway.

A still from a picture painting, 

Not a breeze to move a leaf, 

Yet gentle swirls did make the lake, 

Not disturbing it’s peace. 

I saw it mimic the trees and clouds, 

With every stroke and hue, 

The mountains holding hands they did, 

Beyond horizon’s view. 

Lost in its rippling charm, 

Living there I could, 

Gazing at it night and day, 

it sure would do me good. 

Alas my troubles brought me back, 

To the reality I own, 

Captured the moment to see in time, 

When needed a moment alone.

Circle of Friends

Every so now and then, 

Life takes us for a spin, 
To catch our breath we need some space, 
To keep us sane we need a place, 
Free from worry, come what may, 
A place to forget the troubles of the day. 
So comforting, so safe, we can freely share our fears
There is no judgement, we can easily let go our tears. 
Every time we meet, it’s like a Refresh button
All our worries are momentarily forgotten. 
I want to share my gratitude with each of you, 
For making me a part of your lives too. 
I thank thee God for my circle of friends, 
Whom I, will cherish till the very end.

I try to Smile

My heart is heavy and trembling cold, 
Its rhythmic beat loud in my ears, 
My lips quiver as I try to smile, 
Pushing away thoughts which bring me to tears.

That rhythm falters when you turn your gaze towards me, 
I await that familiar look,  a nod, your loving smile, 
I wait for your arms to open, your eyes into mine. 

You look at me… but your mind  is far away, 
Delved into your ambitious troubles, 
Figuring out through it all, a way. 
“I’m doing this for you”, he says,  
“To take care of you when I’m gone”. 

Then why am I grieving now,  when you’re still with me.. 
Craving for your touch, your attention, your love? 
In silence I’m watching you and I’m mourning, 
I’m mourning and grieving the loss of love,  laughter and romance. 

I need your happiness so I keep silent 
As I watch you,  I wait for it, days.... months turn into years,
For your contentment , your moment, your peace 
In your happiness lies mine, I try to smile. 

Like A Wilting Flower

Like a wilting flower lives,
Drooping day by day,

Trying to lift, trying to smile,

With nothing more to say…

The fragrance had left its body

The charm was next to go,

The poise and youth betrayed its soul,

Vibrant colors no more.

Watching people passing by,

Not a glance they dared to throw,

Thinking back that once nearby,

It was the center show.

For happiness or despair,

For love or console,

It’s the flowers who get torn from its roots,

Left to wilt and die alone.

Sweet Summer Breeze

 Sweet summer breeze, 

Come play with my hair. 

Fragrant mix of flowers, 

Let me breathe you in. 

Soft bed of grass, 

Let me cool my tired feet. 

Bees buzz diligently in my ear, 

Birds tweet in joyful choir, 

Let me close my eyes, 

Lift me and fly me away, 

Let me be free.

 

Barren Heart

Barren Heart

    Silence.... 

....not a sound to be heard,

not a beast in sight....not even a bird.

so quiet it is as I look up the sky,

I'm filled with memories so bitter,

.... my feelings die.

As I look around me alone with my mind

it's an emptiness I see

and in my heart I find.

   This is my life, so barren and quiet,

I slipped and fell hard, 

no help in sight!

Where did they all go , 

disappeared without a trace....

the one's I loved and cared, 

all now without a face.

It's like a glass cage I'm in 
all hollow does it seem
I play my part as a puppet does,
then retreat back into my dream.
Silence....!
no thoughts to be heard,
no memories play ,
all feelings seared.

If Only You Could....

In poignant silence I await your warmth beside me,
My heart shrieks in yearning calling your name over and over,
If only you could hear....

I frantically reach out in the darkness, roused from my nightmare,
I cringe at the vacant space beside me,
If only you could care....

My heart beats fervently when I hear your footsteps walk towards me,
It pounds violently when I hear you walk away,
If only you could feel....

I'm drained of my tears which silently gush down in anguish,
I'm dying a little.....everyday,
If only you could see....

I'm tired of needing you; I'm tired of waiting,
I want to squeeze my heart till it beats no more,
before my loneliness smothers me,
If only you knew....

Shaken Out of Love

Confusion clouds over my mind
There’s something I want, but cannot find,
What is wrong, what is right?
I’m choking on love; I can feel its might.

I’m being shaken from my lovely dream,
I feel so mad, I want to scream!
Agitation makes my blood boil,
The pain I feel, is my heart in turmoil.

I loved so much, why the hate,
I cannot make the pain abate.
I fail to see what wrong I made,
My life isn't mine anymore, I can see it fade.

Waiting to Exhale...

WAITING TO EXHALE 

The sound of silence ringing in my ears,
My lips taste the saltiness of my tears,
I’m alone ,empty and I’m weeping,
I’m alive enough but barely breathing.

I need a touch , I need a smile
I need to know if u’ll stay awhile
The walls of darkness crush my hollow soul,
I need to breathe , I’m falling into a black hole,

I struggle to see, the light of the day
I can only see a dark sun, as I drift away,
I slip into nothingness I’m waiting to exhale......
help me , I want to live ,smile and breathe again.....

I saw her…..

                                                   

The water softly lapping against the rocks,

A beautiful warm sunny day for a walk.

Something shone in the suns glare,

It was a girl with long golden hair.

Something was different about this one

Never seen golden hair so radiantly spun,

The comb she held was studded with jewels,

The more she combed the more it glimmered with the colors of the sun.

She sang a beautiful tune which instantly made my heart dance,

I was filled with happiness and awe in a wondrous trance.

My joy suddenly turned to horror when she lunged forward and jumped into the sea,

Before I could scream out I saw a gleam,

It was a fish’s tail, the color of the brightest aquamarine,

I looked on in amazement, I could hardly breathe,

For a moment I thought our eyes met,

She flashed a pearly smile and dived in.

My heart raced and my head whirled,

When at last I caught my breath

I couldn’t believe what I just saw,

I had seen her……. I saw a Mermaid!

This is not me!

I am but a soul trapped in the wrong body, 

I'm  but a body trapped in the wrong role, 

I'm in a place trapped around the wrong people, 

I’m anybody you want me to be,  but I'm  just not me!

Why did I live someone else’s life? 

Why did I have to pretend? 

Why did I keep quiet and gulp down

My difference of opinion?

I'm not me, 

As you know me to be. 

I’m not me, 

As you want me to be. 

I'm not me.. 

This is not me. 

I am a curve, you are a line, 

I’ve tried to straighten as you have liked, 

I’ve killed my passions, forgone my desires, 

Patiently accepted your way of life….. The good life.. 

Then why do I feel empty? 

why do I feel unsure? 

My self esteem has no reason to look up

why can’t I live this life anymore.. 

I'm not me, 

As you know me to be, 

I’m not me, 

As you want me to be

I'm  not me.. 

This is not me!

Ode to a Rose

A Rose...
.....the queen of flowers,  its riveting loveliness encases a labyrinth of velvety petals, entrancing the bystander with its imperial fragrance.
A Rose...
.... stands poised as a single flower, while the beholder is captivated by the indefinite layers of twirling petals drenched with a sweet enthralling fragrance.
A Rose...
....admired for its relentless beauty and grace, mesmerizes the onlooker with its endless arrangement of silky petals enveloped in fragrant scent.

A Rose...
... a poetic muse....an intoxication.....
A Rose....is a love story....

Thank You, Friend.....

Alone, scared, helpless and sad....

- the gist of my feelings when I met you first,

A refreshing gust of breeze you were...

Uplifting surrounding friendly and warm,

You instantly saw the best in me

when I was convinced and certain there could not be any.

Your simple attitude, honest , kind and dear,

gave hope, assurance and light-hearted cheer.

Times I felt I've been pushed out to fend,

a gentle, caring hand you always had to lend.

I can never forget the countless times when you have given me courage to dare,

Only by your confidence in me, your encouragement, or you……..just by being there.

My Shining Stars!

I look out my window and find the still night,
Millions of stars make the sky bright,
The stars in my life shine at me everyday,
I am happy to have what He has given me today.

Dark Temptations

It’s there.... I know it’s there....
Its presence is deceiving,
Unravelling in obscurity,
Almost alluring, gently teasing.

I see it.... I think I see it.....
I breathe, in vain, to calm my throbbing soul,
I cannot perceive....I cannot grasp,
A noxious gloom engulfs me whole.

Endless Moment....

Endless Moment.......

The moon was full and shining bright,
I was in your arms holding tight,
Could'nt let you go ,

      even for a flicker of my eye,
My heart was so heavy it made me cry.
I brushed away a running tear 

     and you kissed away the other ,
We held ourselves for quite sometime,

     just looking at each other,
I started to say something 

    but you hushed me with a kiss again,
'Let us forget the world ', you said,

'and let the silence remain.......'

Douce Seize

Here I was in Sweet Sixteen,
The most exciting years of my teens.
I realised a new tingle in me,
which I knew was sure to be.
How old are you, they'd ask me,
and I would sing out to them with glee:
'I am sixteen going on seventeen,
I know it's time to think....
Fellows in street, will tell I am sweet,
and I would just go on and wink'!
With parties,music and friends,
Fun and laughter never ends.
To sigh at every handosme boy,
brush past him and say 'Oye'!
Bunking classes, chatting behind the stage,
sure gave us joy at this age.
Teasing people, calling them names
was more a pastime than a game....
Wet crow, Red Indian and Dumbhead,
were some of the names that we kept.
Speaking on telephone all night long,
to break the record over hours and on.
Sitting in groups and all of us singing
Hey, that wuz real fun and exciting!

Keeping all the fun to one side,
our depressing moments too we could'nt hide.
Getting emotional on every little thing,
sometimes we even wished we really had wings!
for every thought we'd give it a thought,
at home for justice we usually fought.
our anger hot and bubbling,
if mom does'nt let you do something.
Ocean of pearly tears comes streaming down often,
that was a scene which was very common.
For we would get our lashes wet,
to every hurting thing they said.
And then we think that it was'nt so bad after all,
and they must not have actually meant it at all,
and cheering up with a sweet smile,
we dry up our big river Nile.
Realizing the ups and downs of life,
dreaming again who's going to be whose wife!
Picturing in your mind ,your man of your dreams...
it was not all that easy as it seemed.

We know we cannot rewind to the past,
'coz sweet sixteen would'nt last.
As they say, 'All good things come to an end',
we can only thank God for his send.
And when we are down, deep with worries,
we sure can recall these sweet memories ! :)

My First Poem - Hello Kitty - Lol!

I wrote this poem when i wuz in my 4th or 5th grade ....i think -
My very first poem - Enjoy!

Hello Kitty
Hey Look at that Kitty,
Isn’t she pretty, walking on the road?
Come here kitty, pretty little kitty
Let us play I’m bored!
Let us play Blindman
– But don’t trip that woman
Coz she will slap u
And this will hurt u
And u’ll go off and I’ll be bored!
------------------We play----------------------------
Stop little kitty,
I’m tired n sleepy,
I want to go home to sleep!
So little kitty,
Went home sadly,
And I went home to sleep!!